Today, a chapter of my life ended. I left my Ogden college home and moved back with my family. It was because I couldn't afford to stay up there anymore, money-wise. In some ways, I was a failure up there. Academically, I was a burning wreck. Socially, I was non-existent. Financially, I was in the hole. Religiously, I was dead. Emotionally, I was crazy. Mentally, I was unstable. Physically, I was tired and lazy. You get the picture.
But I don't think it was a waste, and I don't think I'd trade that chapter of my life for the world. One very important thing happened. I got much closer to Rachel. I think that was worth it all. Even though some people, maybe a lot of people, would think I'm a complete failure and I'm wasting my life, I'm pretty happy right now with where my life is going, in general. I'm happy about the direction it's moving in, even if it's not so great at this very moment. Being here at home, I feel safer and closer to myself, my family (obviously), and more opportunities to move ahead and forge something new out of my life. It's just going to be better down here, at least for the next little while.
But I don't think it was a waste, and I don't think I'd trade that chapter of my life for the world. One very important thing happened. I got much closer to Rachel. I think that was worth it all. Even though some people, maybe a lot of people, would think I'm a complete failure and I'm wasting my life, I'm pretty happy right now with where my life is going, in general. I'm happy about the direction it's moving in, even if it's not so great at this very moment. Being here at home, I feel safer and closer to myself, my family (obviously), and more opportunities to move ahead and forge something new out of my life. It's just going to be better down here, at least for the next little while.
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